Screaming into the Void

Talking to no one in particular about Treatment-Resistant Depression

Thoughts on Depression

Depression doesn’t just steal your future and your present; it colors everything gray. It steals the happy moments and leaves the bad, turning good memories into distant illusions. You never really get them back, not the way they were before. Depression is a thief. It tells you you’ll never be happy again and that you’ve never been happy before.

It’s the loudest voice in your head and sounds just like you. It gets harder and harder to decipher who is who and what is what. If you hear something negative about yourself enough you’ll start to believe it…

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About

Who is Dru? She's my cat, full name, Drusilla, and an alter ego, a pseudonym so I can say what needs to be said.

Why to “no one in particular"? Talking about it makes people worry, and here, in the sea of websites called the internet, no one needs to worry about someone they can't see or hear. This is only a piece of me. It isn't the measure of who I am. It's not how I feel all the time.

Why stay anonymous? I suppose for the same reason anyone does: so I can say exactly what I want. Of course, I don't plan to use my anonymity to treat others like trash. Besides, there's no such thing as anonymity, not really.

I bloom in the depths of darkness, where the light is scarce and shadows reign.

“Am I waving or drowning?”

Favorite Things

AI-Generated images from the lyrics of Kura Kura by Twice translated into English.

Just a few…

Song ● KURA KURA ● Twice

Music Groups ● TWICE ● DREAMCATCHER

Childhood Writer ● EDGAR ALLEN POE

Things I collect…

  • K-Pop Albums

  • Enamel Pins

  • Little animals carved out of rock or forged from metal.

  • Pens

  • Stickers

Childhood film ● LABYRINTH

Horror Film Maker ● MIKE FLANAGAN

Cities ● LONDON ● ATLANTA

Hobbies…

  • Learning Korean

  • Clay Jewelry Making

  • Junk Journaling

  • Bullet Journaling

  • Obsessively Journaling

  • Reading

  • Drawing Doodling